I guess no one comes to this blog anymore, things changed tremendously isn't it? From the time when facebook were nothing, and blogging was everything, almost every single one of us blogs on the net, and now everyone migrated to facebook.
I guess it's the place where I can say my inner feelings then..
January 10th - Now in my own room, with the others going to Heaton for a game of darts, I think I'm going back to my old self... anti-social.. lonely... cool... not really something that I want to, but something my body tend to express, Dr Jekyll and Mr.Hyde? I don't know... the inner feelings seems to burst out recently. And back in London, I had this feeling... a feeling I've never had for years.... years and years and years... it just made my whole heart sour again.. even until now.
I feel lonely again.. and I feel being let down... not by anyone... but myself... my studies... are just horrible.. There's no exam... there's no evaluation... there's no due dates... but I felt bad. The more I think of it... the more I wish I was all alone in the UK... without any distraction... studying... forcing myself to complete just this one step more...
My legs are getting tired... it's getting heavy... it's getting hopeless..
I just felt like I'm dying.....no... I don't need support from anyone.. it just wouldn't help. I need to fight this myself.
Will be going to the lab at 9am tomorrow...
ALL BLACKS SQUAD
